1. Denial: When you notice your final is a week away
2. Acceptance: When you look at the study guide and realize it might as well be in a foreign language, and it’s a foreign language you have to learn
3. Panic: When you realize you won’t have enough time to prepare for even half the test
4. Burning out: When you try to learn everything for the class in one caffeine-fueled library binge
I used to think it was easy to lose people. That I would lose everyone that I ever loved.
That people would just leave, and
I think I was making people a possession and not appreciating them for who they are.
Had I looked at people,
and understood that sometimes people need to run,
to breathe differently,
or have a new change of scenery,
maybe it never would have hurt so badly.
People can’t be lost,
because they are not ours to have.
They are their own person.
Their own desires.
Their own passions and dreams and hopes.
People can’t be lost, because they don’t belong in my world. They don’t need to be trapped in my heart,
because they have their own heart to follow,
and life to lead.
I am happy they found the exit door in my heart
are finding themselves and loving themselves the way they could never be loved as someone who couldn’t or shouldn’t leave me.
It is a weird feeling,
but a joyful one,
to know that they did not leave, but